01:04: I have the strange urge to wet myself. I suppose that’s a good excuse to shower. Can’t figure out the root of the urge. Notes app list potential reasons. None feel more right than the others. I strip as I enter the bathroom, then sit on the shower floor, pulling on the faucet as…
06:53: Phone. 08:48: Send photos I took of Clément to him. Edit the ones he took of me. I’m derp-faced and mouth-breathing in most, he looks like an angel. It’s not a comparison, it’s just the way it is. 09:58: Research kobo e-readers. Mom sprays detangler in my hair. Asks if I’ll shower today. 11:32:…
00:10: Listen to Fleetwood Mac cos I heard ‘Silver Springs’ in a tiktok. I like when put on a random track and hear the voices that taught my mom to sing. Leave my phone on overnight so I can swipe on a very attractive profile in morning. 06:53: Forgot about my screen time lock. Have…
07:00: Ants crawl from my bedside table to the candy wrappers that overflow my bin. they’re the small kind where you can barely make out an individual, but together, they’re a swarm. I brush as many as I can into a plastic bag and throw it out my door. 08:13: Thought I felt less sick…
00:10: Check grindr one last time. Feel post-mild worry about getting fired for getting too epic online. 04:00-05:00: Wake to the rustling of paper and cautious footsteps. Don’t get back to sleep. 06:30: Throat sore. Left ear blocked. Pick up phone. 06:42: Try take flash photos of throat while saying “aghhh,” but cannot get even…
Lowk forgot to note the first half of my day but it went like In that time I had a rly good convo in the twinkcest group chat where I complained about how this guy spoke to me about STIs. Don’t remember anything I thought. 12:03: I ask my new coworker, Star, what he studies—Psychology…
01:00-ish: Jack off thinking about Clément. Soooo much cum splatters over my abdomen. 06:40: Lick the vyvanse. Back into bed. Send the mixtape to everyone I’m still mutuals with on the list. 07:39: Go toilet: My shit’s thicker than my bicep—which is a low bar—but still crazy to be coming out an asshole. I have…
00:11: eyes water during the dad’s poem. Consider walking out the open balcony doors and seeing the view from halfway down. 00:16: Episode finishes. Enjoy the hospital beep credit sounds. I use the bathroom. Anita starts the next episode, but I tell her to stop, we should discuss it. We chat about parental issues, today’s…
08:28: waiting outside the bathroom door cos my brothers taking a piss It feels like ages but it’s only been two minutes. I ask how long he’ll take, he says he’s taking a shit. I didn’t need to go I just wanted to stick a qtip in my ear. I walk back downstairs and use…
09:00: A rattle at my door pulls me from sleep, but doesn’t wake me. 09:02: The door rattles again. I’m only aware of my feet hanging out from the duvet, nothing else is real yet. 09:14: I text mom asking if she knocked at my door. She says it was the plumber. He arrived an…